I-40

Today being Tuesday September 11 is a good chance for me to post something inspired, in part, by a previous Tuesday September 11. In 2001 I was fairly fresh back from a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. My younger brother was preparing to go off to a mission in Switzerland when he drove from our old home in Texas up to Utah to see me and other people before he left. While he was staying with me I gave him a lot of things to take with him, mostly luggage and clothes. When he was heading back to Texas he blew a hole in the side of his engine just outside of Albuquerque on I-40. He hitchhiked into town and called our mother who had contacted someone in Albuquerque who could help and then got a plane ticket home for my brother. When the friend from Albuquerque drove my brother back to his car to tow it back into town, my brother was relieved to see that the tarp he had draped over his luggage in the cab of the little truck was still there. When he opened the driver side door and moved the tarp he found his luggage had been stolen and the passenger window had been broken out.

Fast forward a couple of months to when my brother was set to leave the Missionary Training Center (MTC) for the church. I was in the airport terminal in Salt Lake where my brother would take off for Dallas and then on to Switzerland. I finally spotted him heading toward the escalator. When he got to me he said that the girl behind the counter just told him that one of their (American Airlines) planes had just crashed into a building in New York. The picture that came to my mind was a small commuter with engine troubles losing control and hitting a building. I said, “You don’t say that to someone who’s about to fly” and kind of shook it off. A few minutes after 7:00 MST My brother and I then saw Joseph B. Wirthlin, who had a grandson going to Switzerland too. My brother and I kinda wandered over towards him. As I stood up to wander over that way though I thought I heard the woman who was watching the television, that I had been ignoring, say, “A second plane?” but I ignored it as it wasn’t clear if that is what she had actually said and I was very preoccupied. It seemed like just a couple of minutes before they called for boarding his flight. My brother got in line and I figured it was a good time to say good-bye. I told him I’d see him later and told him to “have fun” then walked away a little and watched him walk towards the jetway.

I then went out to my car and very quickly drove back down to my place on very clear and empty roads while not listening to the radio, but to the CD “The Pleasure and the Greed” by Big Wreck (still remember small details, as I am sure everyone else does). When I got home I was feeling good and picked up the old guitar to play a bit. I had played half of a song when mom called me and asked, “Did your brother’s plane take off?” I said, “Yes” and my mom was very disappointed. I said, “Uh, that’s a good thing ma. He’s on his way to you” (she was in the DFW airport waiting to see him on his layover). She then unknowingly quoted something that was amusing to me for only the next few seconds. It was from “Independence Day” and it was “David, haven’t you been watching?” She then said, “Turn on your TV.” As I got to my living room I asked, “What channel?” and the wall of normalcy was ripped away from me when she said, “It doesn’t matter.” As soon as the TV came on I saw smoke coming from both towers. My mother then said that they had also hit the Pentagon and may have more planes out there. Which brought my mind back to my brother. I hung up and started trying to call the MTC but couldn’t get through. I then just stared helplessly at the TV for the next 45 minutes or so while both towers collapsed.

As it turns out my brother’s plane had only made it to the end of the runway before being turned around. He was brought back to the MTC for another week before he was able to leave when flights were allowed again.

Now in order to understand somethings in what I present below you need to understand a basic tenet of LDS belief. In The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints we believe that people can only be held accountable for what they know. If someone is ignorant of something they cannot be condemned for what they do regarding that item. We believe that once someone knows something that they are then accountable for that knowledge and what they do with it. Whether a person takes a piece of knowledge and uses it to better their lives and the lives of those around them or if they ignore or misuse the knowledge they have they will be rewarded or condemned accordingly.

With all of that in mind I present the song I wrote for my brother at that time. I-40:

And now it’s time to calm down, calm down now.
They’ve taken everything, everything I gave you.
I know that you’d broken down, broken down alone.
And when you weren’t around to defend your ground, they came.

Don’t let them go away.

Today was to be a great day, you’d go away and learn.
But you never left the ground, they hurt that town away.

Don’t let them go away.
And life is stolen everyday.
Don’t let them go away.

The main point is telling him to go teach people to either open their eyes or bring them condemnation based on their, now informed, personal choices. It uses very extreme cases of people choosing incorrectly against things that I think they probably were already fully knowledgable of since stealing and killing are obviously wrong. I like to think that if more people had greater knowledge this world would be a better place and that very few would choose the low road if they knew more, but if they do they will have justice done to them. So don’t let them go away without the knowledge of what is true and right.

“Brothers and sisters, we live in sobering times. Now let’s get to work.” — President Gordon B. Hinckley


Ashby

Well today’s the day. The album has been released. Before you start to listen to any of it go ahead and set aside an hour. It ain’t easy being an album person in a single teeny-bop world. I made the album to be enjoyed as a whole and it does have a theme and a cohesive story. If anyone is curious about any of the songs meanings or inspirations I would be ecstatic to explain. Have a listen:

Now spread the joyous news. There should be a physical CD for sale within the next week that has the rest of my original artwork.

I just have to take a minute to clarify what an accomplishment this is for me and why, although I know it’s not perfect, I am very proud of this. I taught myself to play the guitar when I was 17 and have been writing songs since a couple of weeks after I got my first crappy guitar that made my fingers bleed on a regular basis. The first song I ever wrote, “Orchard”, is actually on this album. The second full song I wrote is “Breakthrough” and it is also in this collection. I played with a few incarnations of pretty much the same band until that fizzled out and went away in 2005. After that I have just kept playing on my own and writing new stuff on a fairly regular basis. I got tired of just playing that way and it felt like I was kinda just wasting time. I feel that music, by it’s nature, is meant for other people to hear it and enjoy it. I was not able to spread any of the music to others and it bugged me. I had done some recording before with the band and I had mixed it, but to be honest it was a horrible mixing job and it never felt great (I will remaster those in the future). I decided to teach myself how to actually record decently and how to play the drums so I could do all the parts I would need. Then I set a deadline for myself (today) and went for it. I learned quite a bit in the process and had some good fun doing it even though it wasn’t just a super easy cakewalk. Then I researched distributors and physical CD options until I found who I liked. Then I made all the artwork for the physical CD. All this learning and work may just be so I can have the only copy of my own CD that is out in the world and that would bother me, but I will live. It doesn’t keep me up at night to think of what people think of me at all, but I do care a little what they think about what I create. I hope just a few people will enjoy what I have put my time into. And maybe somebody out there might be as excited as I am about the next one I am going to make.


“Ashby” by the Squatches

A while back I sat down and listed all the songs I have written. When the list got around 100 I decided that I really wanted to record them and let others hear them. I got myself a good cheap mixer and started recording. Then I decided to set a goal and actually put out the first batch of them as an album. We are getting closer and closer to my goal date when I must cease all mixing and tweaks on Feb. 21 and release the songs regardless of how much I want to change them. I can change them no more after the 20th. Here is the track listing and order that I have decided on:

1. 3rd Rail Kissing Contest
2. And I
3. Stay Out of My Corner
4. I-40
5. Breakthrough
6. Orchard
7. I Lied Again
8. Thunderhead
9. Soft
10. Apologetics
11. Nathaniel
12. Leave it Alone
13. Flat Ground
14. Killing Calm

There they are. Hopefully I will be fully done with the artwork for the physical CD soon.

“Apologetics” Single Pre-Release “EDIT”

Well, I think it is time for those of you who stop by to get a little something early. I can’t promise that I won’t change the mix before Friday, when I will officially release and tell people about it, but you guys get to hear the first song (and a couple of b-sides) earlier than the rest of the world.

It’s called Apologetics:

EDITED HERE TO ADD A LINK AFTER RELEASE:

Go Here to Listen Now

There you have it. There are 13 more where those came from. Please spread the word if you think it is any good at all. Especially if you find it good as an extremely low budget basement recording which the whole album will be. I am proud of the low budget tactics I have used and think I have produced something pretty darn good, remembering that I just taught myself to play the drums too.

The album will be called “Ashby” and runs about 58 minutes so far. It will be another release from the band that the ol’ ball and chain and I formed called “The Squatches” and will be available on iTunes, AmazonMp3, Bandcamp.com and various other places. I am still working on getting a physical CD with my own artwork going. I like to do my own artwork and even this single’s artwork is my own. If anyone can steal a copy of any of my recordings of my music I promise to not get too angry if they tell at least 5 other people to check it out. Hope you enjoy and spread the music.

Many comments of almost all kinds are appreciated.


Everyday

Well its time for another cover song to get posted up here. As a little background for this one, it is a Buddy Holly song that I have had this version of worked up for a while. I grew up near the same area of Texas that Buddy is from and have always been a fan.

Continue reading “Everyday”